It's been soooo long since my last blog! My son is going to be 5 months old this coming Sunday! How time really flies, though not all the time it's because of having fun. More like being busy with life, with work and with taking care of a baby. And yet, sometimes I feel time isn't flying fast enough. Such an oxymoron statement, I know.
In my previous postings, I had stated that I will be taking care of my baby full time. Guess that didn't work out at all. I'm back working full time and found that it is much more rewarding this way. For me, that is. I found taking care of my son full time was too emotionally draining for me. What do I mean, you ask. Well, in the first 2 months of his life, he couldn't stop crying and feeding him was a problem. He would cry and cry when I tried to feed him, and the most he can take is 1 or 2 ozs of milk. The first month was not so bad, as I still have my confinement lady with me, but once she's gone, I'm left alone with him. I fould myself crying with him everyday. Eventually, my mother in law helped out, and things improved slightly.
In the end, 1 and a half months later, I missed working. Brought the subject up with my husband. Initially, he wasn't too keen on the idea. He said I'm too fickle minded. First, want to stop work and take care of baby full time. Now want to go back to work. But I think after seeing me so down from the exhaustion of taking care of Joshua, he gave in. First hurdle crossed. Second hurdle was my parents in law. They were against me going back to work. More than my husband was. They said since I'm already not working, why go back to work when the baby is still so small? If they were trying to instill guilt in me, they did. So dropped the idea for a while.
As much as I love my son, I still find I can't be a full time mother. Starting looking for jobs. Even asked my ex-manager if there are any openings for me. He said sure, he can offer me my previous position if I want it. But I was thinking, with a baby, shift work is not really a good idea. It's really a shame, coz I really loved the job there. So now, I'm working in a children's development centre. A pretty good place. Was a student here once upon a time. They take students from 3 - 15 years old.
So now, life's pretty much balanced for me. Working during the day, taking care of Joshua during the night. My mother in law is taking care of him during the days while my husband and I worked. Before I gave birth, my mother in law kept asking if we have found a babysitter for Joshua or not. Once he's born and she has been with him for 2 months, she didn't have the heart to send him to a babysitter, so she decided to take care of him herself. Which is kinda a relief for me. Family members taking care of our babies are much safer than babysietters. Who knows what kind of babysitter we'll get?? Daren't even imagine the horror stories!
6 comments:
Hi ya Faith! :-)
I can imagine your wanting to have a break from family life once in a while - we all do, not everyone of us can be a full-time mother/housewife. I know I can't! Don't feel guilty about it - it's only natural to feel that way. Just like needing to get out of your parents' house & live on your own lah, it doesn't mean that you love them any less. A break is often healthy in any relationship.
You going to join us for lunch on Sunday? Bring baby Joshua's photos is you can make it - I haven't had a chance to see him yet!
Pugly, I will be meeting up with Li Lian Sunday evening for dinner, together with my husband and Joshua himself, as I'll be in Genting on Sunday. Will only be back in the afternoon. You can't make it for dinner? :)
Alamak, cannot la ... well, it's going to have to be another time then :-)
This is interesting.
Have you thought about taking up Mahjong? Or some housewife activity that usually involves other housewives?
If you don't mind the company, I'll be checking out your blog a bit more.
The cow (Li Lian) has a lot of interesting friends, all of which are very articulate with their words. Well.. except me anyway.
oh btw, with the current newspaper reports of rogue maids and rogue in-house servants and all, you're still thinking about baby sitters? Don't! It's not safe out there!
Izso, I don't know how to play mahjong. Been observing my parents and aunts playing and yet, I could never understand the rules. Hahah! I only gamble during CNY...which will be soon! Hahha!
Of coz I dun mind the company. I'm glad you would want to visit my blog. Hahaha!
The cow is an interesting friend...:P Glad she's back for the time being...
About the babysitter, no longer looking for one already...no worries about that...
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