Faith

Moved

2007-03-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

I have moved to another site for my blogging. Please visit me at http://www.tabulas.com/~myfaith from now on for my postings. Thank you

Child Bonding

2007-03-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

I have an almost 6 months old son, as most of my friends know. As both my husband and myself are working, Joshua is taken care by my mother in law, and we will bring him home with us every night. There are nights that he will sleep with his grandma (my mum in law) to enable my hubby and I to get a good night rest. However, we always make it a point to see him before we go home, as we feel it's very important for us to build a strong relationship/bond with our son. And it's really great, coz our son is always happy when he sees us when we come home from work. Makes our busy and tiring day vanish with his adorable smile and laughs.

Joshua spent Wednesday and Thursday night with my parents this week. We wanted him to get used to my parents' house as well, in any events in future that might need him to spend some nights there. I have learned that babies are smart enough to recognize their surroundings. Joshua will not sleep in a room or area where he has never slept before at night. We made a mistake on Wednesday night as we dropped him at my parents' place at night. We should have asked my parents to collect him in the daytime and let him get used to my parents' place during the day first. Poor baby cried like crazy when we tried to put him to sleep in my parents' room. Refused to sleep. In the end, we tried putting him to sleep where we usually put him when we visit my parents. Thankfully he seemed to recognize the place, and promptly went to sleep till 5am when he woke up for his milk. Amazing!

Hubby and I planned to go see him on Thursday night. Everything was already planned. I'm to wait at home while waiting for hubby to reach home to pick me up for dinner. We will visit Joshua after our dinner. While waiting for hubby to arrive, my mother called, requesting us not to go visit Joshua as she wants to get Joshua to sleep without the parents around to comfort him. In case next time in future, we are really not around. At one point, I do agree with her. Informed my hubby about it when he came home, so we just went out for dinner.

I told my mum in law that we won't be visiting Joshua and she asked why. I explained to her what my mum told me, and mum in law told me she disagree. She (mum in law) believes that parents should be with their children everyday, even if it's for a few hours. It makes a difference for the baby to see his/her parents once a day. She also mentioned that the love and bond of grandparents with their grandchildren can never be compared to the love and bond of the babies and their parents. So, she concluded that grandparents should never prevent the parents from seeing their children.

Halfway thru dinner, I really started to miss Joshua. I have always seen him everyday, and I guess I cannot not see my son even for 1 day. But as hubby pointed out, it's already late by the time we finished dinner and we have some groceries to buy. I was really disappointed. I should have insisted to my mum that I want to see my son. Because of this, I couldn't shop for the groceries whole-heartedly. My mind was on Joshua the whole time.

Throughout work today, Joshua was on my mind most of the time. One of the rare occasion that I'm actually counting the hours before I can go home and see my baby boy, as my parents dropped him back to my mum in law's place today. Reached home, and rushed to see him. He was playing with his father, laughing and kicking away happily. Carried him immediately and gave him a big hug and lots of kisses! No way is mummy going to be away from you for any amount of time if mummy can help it without seeing you at all, darling Joshua!!

A Robbery Gone Shitty...for the thief

2007-02-26T15:57:00.000+08:00

Genting Highlands twice in a month...sure know how to enjoy my long Chinese New Year holiday, huh? Was there with my whole family, as my sister and hubby from Australia came back for the holidays, together with his mother and sister from Hong Kong. We thought of taking them up to Genting Highlands for a short trip. My family stayed a night, while my hubby and I together with my 5 months old son just went up for a day trip as both of us have to work the next day. (Yeah....it sucks having to go to work after a looong holiday!) Trip was all right. My son, being his first time up in Genting, enjoyed the lightings in the First World Hotel's Indoor themepark. Amazing what can attract a baby....:P

Anyway, this trip reminded my cousin of an incident which happened to a friend's friend. This friend's friend, X, had a stomach-ache halfway down, on the way home. So he stopped by the roadside, and did his business in the bushes. Being a civilized gentleman that he is, he laid some newspaper on the ground before he did his business. After his business, he wrapped the newspaper with his shit inside and stuff the package into a plastic bag. He plans to throw it into a dustbin when he reaches the petrol station at the foothill.

When he reached the petrol station, he got out from his car, took the package out, intending to throw it in the dustbin. Before he could do so, two men on a motorcycle rushed at him, and snatched his 'package' from him. X was too stunned to do anything for a few minutes.

I'm sure he never expected to be robbed, and most definitely he never expected that it would be his 'package' that would be stolen. Haha! I would have loved to see the looks on the thieves faces when they got back to wherever they got back to just to find that all they had stolen was somebody else's shit. That would be PRICELESS!!!

CNY Spirits & Celebrities

2007-02-19T22:33:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year is here again for 2007. This year will be the year of the boar/pig. Who amongst you are born in the year of the boar/pig? I know my uncle is. Do many of you believe that your character is determined by the animal year you were born? I don't, but sometimes if you really observe my uncle, I do. Not that he eats like a pig. He's just as slow as a pig! No offense intended of course. Just that my uncle has no time management. He's always late for everything. Without fail! But I digress.

My mother had actually wanted a grandchild born in the year of the boar/pig. I don't know why, and I didn't want to bother finding out why, coz I don't believe in it. So she got a grandchild born in the year of the dog instead. Haha! But if you ask her now, I'm sure she will tell you it doesn't matter, as he's real cute! Haha!

This is Joshua's first Chinese New Year celebration and he got to meet most of his relatives from both my paternal and maternal side. I think he got to meet too many new faces, and he couldn't really take it. Most of the time he was tired and cranky. So most of today I had to rock him to sleep and usually before he sleeps, he gets fussy and cries a lot. And he ain't getting lighter. His feeding was also a problem, as he always doesn't want to finish him milk. More headache for me. And me poor arms!

I also couldn't help thinking. When he grows up, will the Chinese New Year tradition continue? Will he still practice the tradition of visiting his relatives? I really hope so, as I am already observing the next generation not bothering to follow their parents to "pai lin" (visiting of relatives), opting to stay home or to go out with their friends instead. Not wanting to follow their parents is one thing. They can even ask their parents to collect their 'angpaus' for them on their behalf! And some I know who do follow their parents just want to get angpaus. Their motives are not to spend time with relatives they haven't seen in a while. All they see are the red packets. Some will compete to see who gets the most angpaus.

How sad.

For me, I am always excited for CNY as this is the time I get to meet all the relatives that I get to meet once a year only. I get to catch up with them, getting to know how they have been getting on and what's new in their lives. This year is especially special for me, as they get to meet my son for the first time.

Today is the second day of the new year. 13 more days of wonderful food and catching up with relatives and friends. So, to everyone who is reading me, GONG XI FA CAI!! May this year brings your happiness, prosperity, health and joy!

Life Sentences vs Death Sentences

2007-02-17T23:38:00.000+08:00

My parents will come over to my place every Thursday morning to help babysit my son, as my mother in law has to be in church every Thursday.

Last Thursday, after work, my hubby and I went for dinner with them near our house. Somehow or rather, we came to the topic of imprisonment and death sentences. My mother had asked, "Which do you think is worse? A death sentence or a life sentence?"

Immediately, I responded, "Life sentence!" I know some people would disagree with me. But think about it. You won't suffer much after you're dead, right? You will only feel the pain and torture for just a little while, compared to be in prison your whole life! A whole life of being bullied by your in-mates, or worse, being sexually abused. In time, I'm sure you will be asking, "Oh, death sentence seems like a good idea right now!"

"But you must treasure your life!" you say. I would probably return with, "What life?" Life in prison is really no fun at all. Fortunately, I'm not saying that thru experience. Haha! I have heard stories and read stories of people who can't take prison life. Some even take their own lives willingly.

But when I got home and had time to think this question through, I'm not so sure that answer is the correct one. People change thru different circumstances. Getting a death sentence wouldn't give you the chance to change your ways or at least to realise the errors of your ways. You might be stuck in prison for the rest of your lives, but how you accept your "punishment" goes a long way to repentence and having peace of mind and soul. Everybody deserves a second chance. Right?

What do you think? Would a death sentence be better or you would prefer a life sentence? Share your thoughts with me.

All for the Love of Cliff Richard...

2007-02-11T15:28:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Genting Highlands. It was a bittersweet weekend trip.

My whole clan of family had bought the tickets for Cliff Richard's concert back in October 2006, and the concert was yesterday night. Left for Genting Highlands yesterday afternoon, and reached there about 1.45pm. Met up with my parents and had tea at Starbucks at First World Hotel after checking in. My parents had gone for the concert on Friday night, so they were just hanging around waiting for me and my husband to arrive.

My husband and I had planned to go for a midnight movie after the concert, but when we went to the cineplex, the midnight show was at 1.15am. So late! We thought they would have a movie at 12.00am. So was really disappointed. In the end, we walked around a bit, as the concert was at 8pm. We bought 2 tickets to go for the 4D Motion Master, thinking that it was a new attraction. Much to our disappointment (again), it was the same system as their previous 3D with just the addtition of having wind blown into our faces, and water splashings on our body. Nothing special. What a waste of RM16!

When we came out of the motion master ride, our cousin called, informing us that they have arrived, so we went to the hotel lobby to meet up with them. My aunt had a letter given to her that gives her a 2 days 1 night stay for free in First World Hotel which will due by the 15/2/2007. So she gave it to my parents, and just like that, my parents get to stay another night tonight. How wonderful to have this kind of freedom! Hahah! Hung around with my family for a while, then my husband and I went out by ourselves to jalan jalan. Had dinner at 7pm, then left for the Arena of Stars where the concert will be held.

The concert was a hit! All of us thoroughly enjoyed ourselves, amazed by the energy and stamina this 67-year-old singer had! My cousins, my husband and I were one of the few who were much younger than the other people around us. All with the influence of our parents! He sang songs after songs without needing to catch his breath. I was really amazed. Sometimes I dun think I even have his stamina!! When the concert ended, we were disappointed. We wished it could last longer. He only came out once for an encore, and that's usually his trademark. Just one encore. :(

Anyway, had supper at McDonald's after the concert. Decided to forego the movie and just go back to our respective rooms to rest. It was a good day, and each hoped tomorrow would be another good day. After all, it's going to be Sunday. :)

Sigh! How wrong! Hubby woke up very early for breakfast, while I slept in. Nothing will make me wake up as my son is not around for me to worry about, so sleep is one thing I would love to catch up on. Hubby came back at 10am and I woke up, took my shower, then we packed up and checked out. At least, that was our intention. Decided to check out later and go shopping first. Our Genting World Card has about 11,600 points so we thought of redeeming the points. We were so happy, thinking that we have so much to buy.

Went into Soda, and saw two outfits that I liked. We saw the price tags. One is RM89W and one is RM95W. Asked the salesman what the 'W' means, and he explained that's the World Card point that we can redeem. We thought, "Cool!" I tried on the outfits and I liked them. Asked my hubby to go check exactly how many points we have, so he did. 11,600 over points. Thought we could redeem more, then the sales man came back to inform us, "Oh. With your 11,600 points, the worth is only RM116." POP! There goes our happiness that we can redeem loads of stuff. Hahahah! So, all right, decided to redeem only 1 outfit and purchase the other outfit.

Second incident...our WorldCard was declined! What the heck? We have 11,600 over points, and our card is declined. OK, fine! We went to the WorldCard counter and asked. "Oops, your points are suspended as you lost your card a few years back. Wait, will un-suspend it for you," the girl there said. Did whatever she needed to do, and we went back to Soda to redeem the other outfit. DECLINED AGAIN!! Hubby getting pissed off! Stormed to the WorldCard counter again and demanded why is it happening again. Girl checked, and then frowned, informing us her manager didn't un-suspend the card for us. Called her manager and told him, and then passed us the card back, saying this time it's un-suspended. Went back to Soda AGAIN, and tried again. Thankfully, this time it worked! Another point we're not happy is, we spent RM11,600 over and we can only redeem RM116. Totally ridiculous! Even our credit cards give us a better deal! So we decided not to bother using our WorldCard anymore. Not worth the aggravation! Can't believe Genting is so cheating!

After lunch, we walked towards Genting Skyway, needing to go back home already. At the Skyway, we realised we didn't check out!! We called the hotel and asked if we can just go without having to pass them our room cardkey. Turned out to be ok...so we just left Genting, with sweet and bitter memories. And we'll be going back to Genting on the 25th February 2007. Asking for it, aren't we?? :)

Life's Musings......

2007-02-08T14:54:00.000+08:00

It's been soooo long since my last blog! My son is going to be 5 months old this coming Sunday! How time really flies, though not all the time it's because of having fun. More like being busy with life, with work and with taking care of a baby. And yet, sometimes I feel time isn't flying fast enough. Such an oxymoron statement, I know.

In my previous postings, I had stated that I will be taking care of my baby full time. Guess that didn't work out at all. I'm back working full time and found that it is much more rewarding this way. For me, that is. I found taking care of my son full time was too emotionally draining for me. What do I mean, you ask. Well, in the first 2 months of his life, he couldn't stop crying and feeding him was a problem. He would cry and cry when I tried to feed him, and the most he can take is 1 or 2 ozs of milk. The first month was not so bad, as I still have my confinement lady with me, but once she's gone, I'm left alone with him. I fould myself crying with him everyday. Eventually, my mother in law helped out, and things improved slightly.

In the end, 1 and a half months later, I missed working. Brought the subject up with my husband. Initially, he wasn't too keen on the idea. He said I'm too fickle minded. First, want to stop work and take care of baby full time. Now want to go back to work. But I think after seeing me so down from the exhaustion of taking care of Joshua, he gave in. First hurdle crossed. Second hurdle was my parents in law. They were against me going back to work. More than my husband was. They said since I'm already not working, why go back to work when the baby is still so small? If they were trying to instill guilt in me, they did. So dropped the idea for a while.

As much as I love my son, I still find I can't be a full time mother. Starting looking for jobs. Even asked my ex-manager if there are any openings for me. He said sure, he can offer me my previous position if I want it. But I was thinking, with a baby, shift work is not really a good idea. It's really a shame, coz I really loved the job there. So now, I'm working in a children's development centre. A pretty good place. Was a student here once upon a time. They take students from 3 - 15 years old.

So now, life's pretty much balanced for me. Working during the day, taking care of Joshua during the night. My mother in law is taking care of him during the days while my husband and I worked. Before I gave birth, my mother in law kept asking if we have found a babysitter for Joshua or not. Once he's born and she has been with him for 2 months, she didn't have the heart to send him to a babysitter, so she decided to take care of him herself. Which is kinda a relief for me. Family members taking care of our babies are much safer than babysietters. Who knows what kind of babysitter we'll get?? Daren't even imagine the horror stories!

A New Phase in Life

2006-09-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

September 11 will not be the only date when I remember the World Trade Centre in the States being attacked by terrorists. It's also the day my baby boy, Joshua Siew Ern Yang, is born! He is such a big bundle of joy to my husband and I. Our lives will never be the same again as it won't be just to two of us now. We have an addition to the family and we have a huge responsibility to him. Sometimes, it overwhelms me and at time I get scared thinking if I am up to the job or not. Being a mother is such a huge responsibility to me and I want to be the best mom to Joshua. I pray that I will be able to achieve this goal.

September 11 started as usual. I woke up with contraction pains. Initially I thought it was just a normal stomachache, but it stops after about 30 seconds or so and starts all over again every 8 minutes. That's when I started to realise I have started my contractions. I was panicked. I was thinking to myself, "Oh no! The day has come! My son wants to come out into the world!!" However, I tried to continue sleeping as the pain was still bearable. After an hour or so, I told my husband that the contractions had started. We decided not to go to the hospital yet as we know it won't be that fast. So we just stayed home, watching Alias on the computer while waiting for the contraction to become more frequent and consistent. Occasionally I held my husband's hands as the pain was quite bad. I rested after watching the series for a while till it was time for dinner. After much thoughts, we decided to eat at the hospital. I was admitted to the hospital after dinner at 8.30pm.

I was wheeled into the delivery room, even though I told the attendant I could walk. Haha! The nurse checked me and found that I was already 6cm dialiated! That was a huge relief to me, as I don't have to wait too long for the baby to come. I have 4 cm to go. They started the drips on me after my gynae arrived to take a look at me. And boy!! That's when the real pain started!! What I had felt during the day was nothing, NOTHING, compared to the pain I experienced once the drip was administered to me.

Before the delivery day, I had said to myself I didn't want any epidural or any pain killers. I wanted to deliver the baby without them. Unfortunately, on the day itself, I couldn't take the pain. I had 4cm to go, and at the rate I was going (2 hours had gone by and I had only dialated another 1cm only), I couldn't bear the pain as the contractions comes every 1 - 2 minutes! Can you imagine I had to bear the pain for another few hours!! I couldn't and told my husband I need painkillers. They administered the normal painkiller to me first, but I found it didn't do the job. That's when I asked for the epidural. Unfortunately I couldn't get the epidural immediately as the doctor was still at home. He had to rush to the hospital to administer the epidural to me. I had to wait for about half an hour to an hour for him to arrive. Once the epidural was administered, I felt the pain go away. I was even able to sleep! Phew!! That was a huge relief to me. Finally at 1.20am I was fully dialated. However, due to the fact that I do not feel pain, I couldn't push. The midwives kept on encouraging me to push, push and push, but I couldn't. In the end, the vacuum had to be used. At 2.15am, Joshua was born.

People had asked me how I felt when the baby came out and I saw the baby for the first time. I must admit I was too tired to really know what I was feeling. I looked at Joshua for the first time when they placed him in front of me. Oh, I was happy to see him, but I was also thinking, "Finally he's out!!" Hahaha! I was in the hospital for 2 nights.

When we got home, my confinement started. It's not as bad as I thought it would be. The food my confinement lady cooked was nice. I was able/allowed to take my bath a week later, so it wasn't that bad. Haha! The first 2 days Joshua refused to eat and we got worried. I didn't have any breast milk yet as it's too soon, so we had to feed him formula first. After the third day, Joshua's appetite came and he knows how to wake up for milk. That's a relief.

My mother had hired a lady to massage me after giving birth. Again, I felt agonising pain as I had lots of wind in my body. After 3 days of massaging, I felt so good. Haha! Life has started to become a routine. I rested while watching Alias, while my confinement lady helped me with the baby and cooking my meals as I wasn't really allowed to move much. Friends and relatives trickles in to see the baby, so we were also busy entertaining.

So I must say, having a baby really changed our lives and I wouldn't have it any other way. For those who are thinking of not having a baby, I strongly urge you to reconsider. They bring so much light into your lives. Looking at Joshua, I couldn't believe my luck, knowing that he's mine and he came from me and my husband. I thank God daily for this gift that He has given us.

Relationships & Break Ups

2006-08-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

I went to watch Break Up with a friend today at Cineleisure near The Curve. Never intended to watch it, but since this friend invited me and I had nothing to do, so I agreed to accompany her to watch it. Turned out ok, but it got me thinking about the issues of relationships and what people do when they break up with their partners. It got me started thinking back on all the relationships I had before my relationship with Chen Lei.

People do stupid things in relationships. Some people I see do even more stupid things to get into a relationship, regardless if the person they want the relationship with is interested in the same thing or not. I see people getting into relationships just because their friends are in relationships. When I was in high school, relationships never really crossed my mind as I was in an all-girl school, and I hadn't spend much time with boys. The only boys I get to mix with was the boys in my tuition class. And I was shy enough never to talk much to boys at that time. But I see lots of couples being formed in that tuition class and now, I have no idea why it never occurred to me that I could have done the same thing. Probably due to my shyness and my parents were strict about dating at that age.

I had friends grumbling to me that all their friends have either a boyfriend or a girlfriend and how come they don't have one. I usually just laughed and told them why do they need one? I was happy hanging out with my girlfriends. I find boys make things more awkward when they are around. Don't get me wrong. I'm not innocent or anything at that time. I know what relationships are and what people do in relationships. I just couldn't or didn't find the interest to get into one myself. This went on till college days.

In college I find myself surrounded by boys. That was a culture shock for me. Slowly, I got used to the company of boys. I remember my first "crush". We shall just call him X, ok? Thinking back, I can call myself 'stupid', 'bodoh', 'chun choi', 'pentan' (mandarin). I must admit I did so many stupid things just to get his attention and just to spend time with him. And to tell you the truth, when I left that college, and never saw this boy again, I have never felt the same deep feelings with any other guys anymore. Till I met my hubby, of course. By the time I met him (my hubby), I have learned never to shortchange myself when it comes to relationships. That's another story altogether.

After X, I do have other relationships, but what I felt for the other guys could never be compared to what I felt for X. It's sad, actually. To have 1 guy ruined that. For it was pretty bad with X. It was so bad that it affected my studies and had to leave the college to start afresh elsewhere. During this time, my relationship with my parents weren’t so good either. Tension is always with us.

Even though I had other relationships, they never last long. The most it’s usually 2 years plus. They never reached the three years mark. I was fortunate as most of my break ups are mutual and friendly. We’re still in contact with each other and I had even attended one of their weddings. I think this is because my feelings for those guys weren’t deep enough to hurt.

The movie was different. It was the girl who initiated the break up, but I think she regretted the decision almost immediately after she said it out loud. Then she went on a mission to try to make him change. That’s the thing about the success of a relationship. We should not try to change our partners. That will never work. It was that character in the first place that attracted them to us. And suddenly we find that the same quality that attracted you in the first place is the quality that you cannot tolerate. Isn’t that funny? She tried dating other guys and flaunting the other guys to his ex-boyfriend (as they are still living together as neither is willing to move out). As expected, that failed, as he upped the ante by having girls over to have a party. The situation got from bad to worse when each had their friends having to choose sides.

However, the situation turned around to a positive side when they both decided to discuss things instead of yelling insults at each other. Issues were brought out and both parties listened to each other. That’s what makes a relationship work. C-O-M-M-U-N-I-C-A-T-I-O-N. We need to communicate with one another to make the other person understand what we want or what we’re trying to tell them. We humans are no mind readers. We should not expect our partners to read our minds and to know immediately what we want without us having to tell them. That’s pretty unfair.

All these are from my experience, and I’m sure other people might disagree with what I’m saying here. Relationships and break ups are such open topics that different people have different opinions. But I believe that what I’ve shared here is just general truth. It took one movie for me to start thinking about this. And I actually decided not to watch it initially. I’m glad I did as it made me think deeper.

Unemployment & Impending Motherhood

2006-08-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

Initially I had started a blog, but had forgotten the website so started on a new one. This is my first post, so forgive me if I sound serious or boring. Need to get my writing skills started again.

Never thought that the day will come when I truly give up my job to become a full time mother. I have always told friends that I will NEVER quit working as I can't imagine staying home doing nothing. And what did I do in the end? Resigned from my job and waiting to be a full time mother! That's why I've changed my motto. My new motto is "Never say never". You will never know what life throws at you.

So what do I do now at home while waiting for my baby to arrive? Cross stitch! Haven't been doing that since I started college and that surely felt ages ago. Still has the touch as there is no talent needed in cross stitching. Just follow instructions and voila! Cute picture at the end of the effort. Hhahaha! Though I wonder what the heck am I going to do with it once it's finished.

Ever wondered what people think of when they have time in their hands? I'm not sure about other people, but for me it's definitely my impending motherhood. For now till labour day (not the 1st of May..:P) I can sleep till anytime I want. (That's also another side benefit of not working...kekekek) I've been told that taking care of a baby is harder work than actual working in the corporate world. Since this one will be my first child, I wouldn't know the difference until the time actually comes when I can compare. And I can't wait to see my baby boy!

I have two of my friends who had given birth to their sons in May 2006. The babies are soooooo cute!! Make me more impatient for mine to come. One of my friend's (Flora) son, Gabriel, is really growing fast. He would be about 2 and a half months old now and he's getting more adorable everyday. Everytime I see him, he changes in size and looks. His hair is amazing! Looks like a Mohawk.

Oh well, I'll just have to wait till September to see my baby boy. I'm sure when he's out in this world, I'll miss feeling him moving inside me. Though I can't say I'll miss having him kick my poor, bruised ribs. There are several more things I will definitely will NOT miss from this pregnancy:

Sleepless nights from having a tummy the size of a football
Feeling hungry most of the time and eating like a glutton
Feeling tired all the time from the weight of above-mentioned tummy and from the sleepless nights
Nausea (though thank God I didn't vomit)
Bloated legs and feet (felt like Big Foot)
Difficulties in moving around (eg. walking, getting out of the car...) due to the above-mentioned tummy again
Having to bear not eating some of my favourite food during the whole pregnancy (I miss my sushi!!!)
And finally...the most dreaded one of all...my CONFINEMENT!!!

Other than that, pregnancy is fine. I'm told that once the baby is out, every problems/pain/discomforts will be forgotten, and the joy of my baby will overcome everything. Let's pray that's true in my case.